The Greenhorn Goblin

Well, I"m not laughing yet about my antics with Rally two weekends ago, in fact I've been deeply reflective. If I'm brutally honest with myself my desire is streets ahead of my abilities. This isn't fair to Rally or worse his owner who when she wanted to half lease her horse, I don't think expected to have to babysit the leaser in the process. My riding school also offered to let me join their barn program this week. School horses are different from non-school horses for sure (and thus I won't get that experience/comfort yet) but given where my confidence level and abilities currently are, this seems like the better course of action for me right now; a very painful/humbling decision for the Type A person that I am but also a very realistic one.

I'm so consumed by horses. I'm happy just to hang around the barn and watch, be near them. Deep down peaceful satisfaction, something that is so unique for me. I'm a go-go-go kind of person, I'm not the best at stopping and smelling the roses but horses - they stop me dead in my tracks. I'm amazed at the wonder of it all and how I could possibly have gone this long and not previously connected with this side of me before.

Doesn't matter, I'm here now, in my happy place :)